22 May 2018

Rave part 2/7

I've posted a few calls for help on different forums, basically asking if there are any people in my area who'd want to go with me to my first rave. I haven't had any luck so far but I'm sure there must be someone who could help. In the meantime, here are some more of the posts I found from the blog.

May 30th Tuseday 2017
7:17 pm

Hello crowd!

So, last weekend, let's talk about that. I had a great time. Seriously, I know I said I was sad about Jo not coming with me, but I had a fucking fantastic time! I don't even know why I was nervous! Last Friday I took the train out to the venue, I decided that'd be for the best, leaving the car at home. I spent about an hour at the rave sober, until I saw a girl from a few weeks ago. She had these plastic, springy tubes in her hair. Anyway, I walked up to her and introduced myself again, in case she'd forgotten about me. She hadn't, but humoured me and introduced herself again, as Alyssa. We danced for a while before I brought up the MDMA. I told her my friend had bailed on me and she offered to be the one doing it with me instead. An hour later I felt better than I've ever felt in my life. The sound, and the colours, I don't know how to explain it all. Everything was just so beautiful and, vibrant? I guess vibrant is a good word for it. Or "more", just, everything was much "more". Remember how I said I haven't felt connected to any crowds before I went to that first rave? This time that experience was amplified by like, a thousand. I know it sounds crazy but it was like we were one. A unity; all of us, like everyone felt the same things, the same compassion, passion, love, warmth. Everything felt connected, everything made sense. I felt like I was on the inside of something bigger, like a group. I wasn't on the outside anymore. It was the best night of my entire life. We were there all morning, and to be honest I don't remember much after 2 am. Only that Alyssa and I had breakfast together. I had pancakes, she had coffee. I felt happy. Now it's Tuesday, I've just about recovered and the feeling of wanting more is growing. During the last weekend I got word of another rave next weekend, in the next town over. It's not too far, and if I go there on Saturday I'll make it back by Monday for sure. Jo won't be coming with me this time, but I got Alyssa's number so maybe I'll ask her.

See you next time!

June 11th Sunday 2017
2:18 pm

Hey crowd.

So, something weird happened last Tuesday. I ran into Jo at the grocery store, I tried to make conversation but then Jo just turned away and left! Just like that! What an ass. Wouldn't even look me in the eyes or even at my face or anything. I'm really pissed about that, we haven't talked in so long and now this. I don't know what Jo's deal is but I don't want to waste my time when I'm the only one who cares about this relationship. The rave last weekend was good by the way, although I didn't make it back until late Monday evening. Okay, last Tuesday. Anyway, I heard something about a bigger event going down this summer. Rumour has it that it's going to happen abroad. I really need to keep my eyes and ears open for this one!

Until next time!

[Rave is written by Anna Yngvesson]